Today I had every intention of getting to grips with my online marketing. I've been meaning to do it for ages but if I'm honest I kept putting it off. It's not my most favourite thing to do (I'd rather be with clients and doing hands on stuff) but as an ex marketing professional I value it's importance so decided today would be the day that I got to grips with Adwords and visibility. Or so I thought. Before deciding on what my words would be I thought I'd check my emails and to my horror realised that I had almost 3000 unread emails in my Inbox! 3000, I mean really? Can you imagine what that feels like?
I always knew deep down that they existed and what they were (I do read the important ones). They were from organisations whose mailing lists I'd subscribed to and then never read anything from, duplicated receipts, offers, deals and basically just junk. I felt a strange sense of guilt at allowing them to build to such a volume and at the same time an immediate need to delete them all - but of course this involved having a quick read just in case I did need them after all.
The surprising thing was how much better this made me feel. With every batch that I consigned to the trash basket I felt a sense of relief and lightness. The more I trashed the better and lighter I felt. There were emails relating to old work projects, correspondence that wasn't as kind as it could have been, messages from toxic relationships, things and people and projects no longer in my life. I found myself almost chanting 'thank you for your teaching and goodbye' with every press of a button. It felt gooood.
What struck me the most was the sense of spaciousness I felt. Like a weight had been lifted. As though I had now given myself the conditions I needed to move on. Letting go to create space for something better. And that led to me thinking about spaces and voids and the fact that nature abhors a void ........... but I'll save those musings for my next post.