Hello again! It's been a while. I started this blog at the beginning of the year with all good intentions of writing a weekly post - sadly that hasn't happened. In hindsight I think I was struggling to write because I was struggling to find my true voice. Being authentic is really hard.
Since qualifying as a therapist I admit I've found it hard to find my way. I knew what I wasn't but I couldn't find what I was. Or rather in truth I dare not be what I was. This left me in a strange limbo land of not knowing where I was going or what I should be doing. The only thing of certainty was the name I chose for my professional life 'Wolf and Flow'. I didn't understand what the words meant. They just came to me and felt very, very right.
But like the image I was the girl who was running from the wolf. Why couldn't I embrace Wolf and Flow? Whatever it represented. In a nutshell - I was scared. Scared that if I embraced Wolf and Flow, I'd have to be authentic. This scared me even more. I was scared that the world would shame me, laugh at me, not take me seriously. But I couldn't be what I perceived the world wanted me to be either. So I was caught on a wheel, going around and around trying to be something that I knew I wasn't.
And then I started to meet people. Nice people. People who came into my life when I needed them the most. People who said it's okay to be different, that to be authentic you have to embrace all that you are. Don't try to be what you are not. So slowly and gently I reached out to Wolf and Flow. I stroked the wolf and knew she was my friend.
And now 9 months on I am finally able to put my hand on my heart and say this is who I am and this is what I do. There is no hiding, no shame, no what ifs. I have come to recognise that I am Wolf and Flow. Always have been and always will be. I stand proud that I have the courage of the wolf to stand up and be me embracing my flow of experience whatever it may be.
This post may have been 9 months later than I'd envisaged but I think it's worth the wait.
All images: Lucy Campbell